know what can make a horrible, terrible, no good day better? CHRISTMAS decorations with a hint of christmas jams to dance around to.

this is exactly what me and my two BESTfriends/roommates did today.

last night was one of those nights where my anxiety/stresses/upset/moodiness got to me.

i was up until 4 am, talk about smart idea.

today in florida it was gloomy, rainy, and yucky. think that put me in a better mood? NAH.

so after class, mal and me had a brilliant idea to put up our WHITE christmas tree. our spirits were brightened. INSTANTLY! stockings-check.christmas tree-check.

missing:ornaments and a few other necessities to make our christmas that much better.

even though its november 2nd, who really is counting? EXACTLY!

"underneath my christmas tree"

me and my BESTfriend

Hocus Pocus

Halloween 2010

Minnie & Mickey Mouse

friday night. we went to Pace's and had a little get together/party for all our friends. the night was certainly unexpected, and very entertaining to say the least... never a dull moment with the group of friends we have that's for sure. our costumes were home-made which are always the BEST. although it seemed as though everyone in the world was minnie mouse for halloween. they were missing one key thing; a mickey mouse (;

GG4L

(love my girls)

The best group by far <3

Saturday night we went to another Halloween party and ended up being yet another themed couple. peebles and bam bam. i was a little upset at the fact that no one knew who i was, and kept thinking that pace was fred flinestone. did people not watch the flinestone's when they were younger, they did have kids! either way the second night was just as fun as the first. i love holidays and celebrating them, and doing all those festive things. i'm such a big kid at heart; and it will stay that way forever.

Pebbles & Bamm Bamm

Happy Halloween!

Halloween night we ended up passing out candy to the kids as Minnie and Mickey. ended up seeing the most adorable kids on the planet. i saw one girl as an avatar, and i asked her did she really watch that movie (keep in mind she was about 5 years old) and she answered, "yes, it's my favorite.." ADORABLE! then a family of five kids walked up, and were the whole cast of the wizard of oz. my heart melted. i wanted those children to be my kids. WOW, yet again ADORABLE. pace doesn't understand the meaning of passing out a piece to each kid, he's giving every kid hand fulls... so we run out within an hour. however if you ventured over to the Garthright's house this Halloween you would find my dad "Big Zeph" passing out coloring books, crayons, and bouncy balls to kids. only my family. one little boy my mom told me said to my dad, "but i don't color!" my dad said, "four years old and you don't color!" like really wow, get the kid a coloring book. what has the world done to our youth. iLOVEDcoloring. however receiving that in my halloween sack, i am not so sure about. but still, only my dad. gotta love him.

hope everyone did all the tricks and got all their treats this halloween.

i know i did (;

new blog (;

somehow or another my last blog entirely won't let me post anything. yet, even sign in half of the time.
hence, the NEWblog.
which in fact is sort of refreshing. granted, i can still see the posts i wrote all summer up until now... and quite frankly the idea of a NEWblog excites me. yea somewhere out in cyber world my OLD blog still exists. with my cut downs, my words of hatred, my thoughts of the "NEW me" a better me. my emotions, my anger, my happiness, my ups and downs. my life pretty much in word form.
and here i go yet again, opening my life up to people. not even knowing who really reads this.
it's kind of intriguing writing not knowing who really looks at my blog. it's therapeutic, in a weird way.

the last month has been nothing short of a roller coaster. at times i wanted to jump off my own roller coaster. i was over the ride. but ironically... i'm still on.
holding on. strapped in. ready for what the next toss and turn to be. round and round, up and down.
let's go. roller coaster.

i've learned a lot this past month. from my new friends, from old and distant friends.
to a girl;a BESTfriend who is stronger than i could ever be, thank you for giving me hope in myself. for making me feel loved. (you're going to be OK;iLOVEyou!)
to a new friend who helped me at my lowest point, i thank God for bringing you into my life.
for a boy who broke my heart, for a boy i hurt to make myself feel better... i am sorry. people deserve second chances, love deserves a second chance.
for a friend who is missing in my life... i don't know you anymore, and i miss you.
and for the people who have impacted me and stood by me and believed in me and myDREAMS.
thankYOU!
and to the cd that has gotten me through it all... and been on constant repeat.
taylorswift. says all the things i want to say; and NEVERcould.thankyou (;


i'm ready for the next turn, next up side down roll around curve.
my lifeisPERFECT. in every sense.
i have blessings that others could ONLYdream of.
when i think i have it worse; there are others that have it just as WORSE.
faith.prayer.happiness.
threeiNEED.

let's go november... bring me a surprise (;
... i'll be waiting.